April Fool's day is just another excuse to...

trick me into falling for you for the 74th time...

i have been searching, what seems like, all my life for good enough. i am no closer now to knowing what that is than when i was head over feet in love four years ago. [i understand now what i thought was love then was a kind of relationship that was unable to grow... and so both him and i have moved on.] i try and try and try to become this good enough i so want to be... that others expect. i have changed my appearance over the years. i have had short hair, long hair, all types of make-up... and thanks to using running as a stress reliever i am not a terrible size. i am not a bad person... i am a good friend and someday will make a wonderful mother. i am driven... in a year i will be done with school... i have been able to take something i love doing and made it something i can build into a lovely career. myself as a person i wouldn't change. there are a few things i would like to work on... but that's just growth. so why can't i just be good enough damn it.

MORAL OF THE STORY: don't believe the man who cried buffalo... because buffaloes have been extinct since long before i was born. good enough will happen when i accept everything above and stop comparing myself to others. we all have our insecurities... we all have trust issues... it's human to. finding happiness in being human is the goal.

above picture by Allie... she is awesome... the end.